o time
bismillah
It had been 6 month since i left my homeland, now i realize that the time is moving very fast as if it were like the flow of river, its just like playing a raft, the flow of the river will not give any mercy to us, whether we prepare or not for the coming, the flow of river doesn't care, if we not prepare ourself, either we fall from the raft, or the flow will take control of us, maybe it'll bring us to safer place or disaster awaits us....
Just like Allah says in the quran in surah al-asr, that mankind is in loss except such as have Faith, and do righteous deeds, and (join together) in the mutual teaching of Truth, and of Patience and Constancy. Oh time, what a pity feeling when i look at you, after all this years, i felt that i just waste all my life, now i achieve my 20th, and what had i achieve for my life, none except my 20th birthday, i ask myself, what i've done that make me feel proud of myself, that pleased my Creator, ahhh, there's nothing i could state. It's just like my life is to live, just to comfort my daily life, wake from sleep, eat, go to school, then eat again, when there's nothing to do, entertainment will fill that moment, last of the day, we back to the bed. And all this will continue in our daily life, our routine. for the coming years, maybe we'll finish your studies, and maybe we got married, having child and grandchild, the story of a man, continue on for every generation, except for those who are muslim, maybe some ibadah, will be add on their schedule of life. Can't you see that our life is like a robot. Some inventor, invent it, and programmed it, and the robot just do the thing that they were programmed for and when time comes, its master will unplugged it, and the whole system of the robot will shutdown. Can we imagine, nothing we had done, just wait for our death to come.
Have you ever felt that, one day, you were bored, and it triggers you to do something to fill that boredom, and something that you yourself could not believe that you will do it (the sin to Allah) had come to your thought. you say to yourself, people once make mistake, and this is the first and last time i do it. and when you've done it, you felt some mixed feeling, "oh my God, what had i done", you feel very regret, at the same time, you feel very satisfied. and you said, i've pass it and it'll be my first and my last. But the nature of human, when we are derived by ourself, not by religion, we can do what ever we want to do, is it right?. And yet,you tend to repeat the mistake unconsciously. when you are on doing the mistake, you felt that nothing on this earth could see what I'm doing. You just think by yourself "beware of human, when human sees you, you will feel very shame". When you think like that, did you realize, where you put your God?, you just care what human think of you and you don't even care that God always near to you, never missed every moment watching and spying on your doing, even He knew every monologue that rise within your heart. Where is your ihsan, where is your swear "as if you see Him, although you cannot see Him?. Where is your feeling of undoubtedly believing that He is constantly watching over us?.
Last but not least, always consistence and upgrade about what you the good thing you are doing because you must remember that the time show no mercy to us. So make it worth before your end of your time. And do remember to always be grateful to Allah for all his blessing, give us the chance of living till this moment despite of the wrongdoings and the sins that we had done.
